justspeakyourword

...long time since I've posted so here goes...the most complexing thing I face is self. So far I can't seem to figure it out I feel like Paul when he spoke to the church at Rome the things I don't want to do I do the things I do want to do I don't and the there's this everlasting battle with self. It's almost as if I step out of myself and see this talented ambitious person with all of these dreams and aspirations yet I don't know how to get him to those dreams and make them a reality nor do I seem to know where to start. To him he's just as lost as I am and we're both a host of confusion. So I take moments to really analyze my habits to look in the mirror and really see the truth of my character and I can't seem to make anything change. Then I look at the habits I've formed and see the same sad conclusion yet I ask myself how do I change? Still attempting to figure that out...goal one change bad habits.